I run for my life, I run as fast as I could, I know this is time...time that I face the authorities and their weapons that would attempt to detain me. But I am wild, angry with revenge, desperate to save my own skin, and last of all I am ready...to fight.

I tie up my long brown hair, I prepare, I'm in my offensive stance, the authorities come and they surround me in the open space.

It was raining, the rain could've been colder, but this was good enough to wake my senses.

One of them charge towards me, I quickly dodge and elbow their back, sending them onto the floor with gravity and pain. I swung my leg onto another one's face and tripped another and knocked out yet another...before I see a girl, her eyes glazed with fascination. What was her role in this? A spectator? Before I saw what was in her hand, another came in front of my line of sight.

I took them all down, they were men and women, trained to detain criminals, but they couldn't detain me, I was not a criminal...I was just a twenty year old woman who had to do what she needed to do. Take revenge for her family and return to the grave and then destroy herself, so she may leave the world in peace.

There was nothing worth fighting for, the land that I lived on for twenty years had engaged in a war that I knew that we were not going to win by a long shot. I don't know what was so special about the island, why they would actually be able to hold out from a much more advance island in wars. There was a secret, I would never discover the truth behind this secret. I think it was best left unknown. 

People surrounded me, all beaten down until they were unconscious. I take off my gloves and drop them on the wet floor. I see the girl again and she had something behind her. I stared at her and she stared at me in this shy manner. There was something fishy, I slowly approach her. She quickly snapped and blew a whistle. I heard something fall behind me and I spun around just to get knocked out.

Next thing I see was a white room, no one was in this room. I was chained down in a chair, everything was still and I didn't try to make my escape. It would be futile obviously, I wore only a white gown and I was tied from neck to foot. I hear the door on the other side click open, the girl from before comes in. Her attire was unusual. It reminded me of something...something with sorcery.

"Um...hi, now, don't be afraid, um..." She was flustered, I could tell by the way she fidgets and her uneasiness that she quite naive and innocent. But somewhere inside those dark blue eyes, she was a strong girl. I smiled at her, I couldn't control it. She caught sight of my small smile and smiled back even bigger, a radiant glow seemed to light up the bland room. "I'm Lita, nice to meet you, uh..."

"What's the deal here? Shouldn't they execute me for hurting so many officers?" I asked in a smug light. She didn't break from her genuine smile.

"Well, since this is it, I'll be honest, we're at war and we need strong people to be our fighters," She was serious and her eyes held onto mine.

"So, you're recruiting me?" I raised an eyebrow at her.

"Well, yes, you're going to be fighting in a vessel. We needed someone who was physically strong enough to operate the vessel. I saw you fight those trained officers, you're perfect!" She smiled again and I stared at her in disbelief. 

"What? You're kidding!" I blurted.

"No, I'm not, look, even if you're some sort of criminal, we need you. Strong people like you are hard to come by and...you don't have a choice. We won't kill you, if you don't comply, you would have to be forced into the vessel either way." Her expression was grim and sad. I held my breath and sighed.

"There's no way out of this, I guess." I rolled my head back.

"Oh! Then you agree with this operation?"

"There's no no to this situation, I'll go with the flow, since there's nothing really left for me."

"Ah, then, from now on I am to be your warden. Tomorrow we'll carry on with the ritual, but tonight they're going to prepare you for it." She disappeared before I said another word.

I did not notice until now, but when I type nonsense and all that other stuff...it sounds pretty...weird. I talk like a whole different type of person when I'm on the internet, everyone does. It's pretty obvious and it shows up a lot in my past experience with talking to guys on the net. I was a really promiscuous girl, always flaunting the subtle hints of my interests towards them and it will work sometimes and the same time it will not. Those were the days when guys were out in the open ready to type some inappropriate shizz and jizz out their thoughts of lust. But nowadays males are pretty conservative, it's good and I learned to be discreet.

I learned to reject them flat out front and not fall into the temptations of having these relations because they are just plain stupid and not worth it. Keep your internet buds close, but your real life FRIENDS closer.

So hm...should I list the different fleeting relations that I had in the past? I was really young and stupid back then, so you pretty much saw it coming. At least I was smart enough not to tell out my real personal secrets to them! I knew better and well, my sisters monitored me from time to time...

So it started out with Diablo...

I had at least 2 relations out of that counting a stalker who literally sexually harassed me (that was a funny/frightening time)...

It started out with me joining a game called 'Girls Join Please' so I was curious and joined it! HAHA!! I met this guy, agreed to be his friend and then suddenly we were smooching/talking up to each other and became boy/girl friend! WTF?! So, I had a pretty jolted up account back then, because I knew how to snatch away the good stuff ...

We engaged in the most outrageous situations of flirt talking. It was hilarious and then there was this other dude...who turned up to sexually harass me in the game. He was damn scary and my boyfriend didn't do much. He couldn't do much. So, I learned a few squelching tricks from the friend and squelched the dude who freaking chased and whispered me to suck his diiiiiii! WTF?

My sister knew this and she was having fun laughing her tush off. Well, she also helped me and I was glad that she was around to share the laughs and all. It was really funny and thank God I never met someone like again.

So, suddenly my bf started playing another game, I could talk to him from my game, but...we drifted apart and soon my account got hacked. I couldn't talk to him and that was that, never saw him again.

Soon starting my next account there was another dude who was ready to finger me...at that time I had NO idea what the hell that was...after reading yaoi, I found out and googling random sex stuff for the term definitions paid off. I'm well informed now! He was a sensitive horny teenager...and when I was flirted by this other dude, he was like WTF?! GET OFF OF HER! RAWR!!! he kept whining how weird his friends are and I was huh? why the freak are you still his friend then? This horny teenager was pretty nice to me though, he shared items with me and didn't really care as long as I was willing to be his GF! HUH? So we broke it off, before I hurt his horny feelings for fingering me!  NEVVER!!! I want to be a virgin forever!

Anyways that was weird o.O

Now let's see...

World of Warcraft brought me longer relations with this weirdos...

I was just a noob and I liked to dance around like a bimbo and I was a 100% girl who was willing to be this dude's GF! LOL another one yes!! Anyways this one was really funny...

I don't know what, but this one was just almost to the brink of insanity~! He told me he was a model and I was WTF? he wanted my picture and to meet me...and that was when I thought NO FRIGGIN WAY! He was even willing to share his MSN with me! I lied about my age, I thought age would matter to him since I was like 2-3 years older then him (supposing). So we broke that one OFF! Thank goodness...

There was this other dude who liked flirting with him back and forth, but I don't remember that one...I had several players make a pass on me, but I was like nah...I took a mini break from playing WoW and moved to Perfect World.

This is where I met the fun teen! He was a good pal and we flirt and he would just pick me up and kiss me around...on my character! It was really fun, I even made a video of us...which I shall never show! Because it consists of all the silly stuff we did. So while that fun relation lasted, it also had to end. He got bored of that game and I did too...Oh well...

Anyways I joined a forum for this thing...and guess what? Mr. I-would-like-to-be-your-boyfriend shows up! WTF?!!! This guy I just started to talk to and then comes up! WHAT? He broke it off with his girlfriend, but now he wants to be with me...because I'm right in his age range baby! Of course, I was just an under aged kid that just wanted to mess around in peace. But it seems like the world still has guys who wants to be my BF and it's over the internet...this is my curse...I just couldn't refuse not to flirt with this dude! He was a sweetheart and I could tell...

But I can't carry on this...he was willing to wait for me, but no...it won't work! He was all the way in another state and I was here...not going to work and never!

Oh and more male players wanted to make a pass on me when I was playing in Jade Dynasty...seriously? I'm flattered, but I have better things to do other then be your girlfriend! This dude...was chatting me up and I turned him down nicely and at the same time encouraging him to go bother some other girl. There were a lot of female/male players who wanted to have a BF/GF! So go seek them, not me! I may have on a nice dress/attire, but that doesn't mean I'm open to suggestive comments.

Plus I know the perils of having such relations come to your front door. He may be a serial killer or a pedo! I don't want to name all the horrid possibilities! But I'm never going all the way. NO WAY!

It's fun to flirt and all over the internet, but one should never be serious. It's obviously too dangerous!

I think I'll stay single for the rest of my life. Or have a light relationship, if that's even possible nowadays...

LISTEN TO VANITY BY CHRISTINA!! XTINA!!! You guys should love yourself first before loving anyone else!

These past few days has been hectic and rather stressful.

Fridays are for napping, and guess what? I napped today...real good...and wasted sooo much time not doing my homework or anything. Shame, shame on me.

So, speaking of stressful...school is pretty stressful in general, it made me quite the grumpy hiker. I wanted to vent my anger to the world and pretty much slack it out.

Anyways, this week also had the word 'coincidence' in it! I was reading Papillion Hana to Chou and they were digging deep in Ageha's ignorance and insensitive trait. It took someone to make her realize this flaw. Same here for me! It took my sister to make me realize how insensitive I am! I never thought people were that fragile to break...I guess it's different for everyone. Kind of strange and kind of normal.

But oh well, onto another random topic!

I noticed that every morning, my body...would wake itself up...

Whenever it's time or close to my regular daily wake-up time my hands...would either pat my abdomen or my body would arch a little to either wake my chest bones or whatever. What else? A bunch of other unmentionable things happen under the covers...I should keep my mouth shut. 

At least I don't have a sleeping disorder. Yet.

Everyone remember to get a good night sleep! and remember to keep a watchful MOUTH!